Journal April 13,15,17

April 13, 2020

I’ve started eating hot dogs again. Usually I don’t like them, but as a kid I would always eat them. My dad has decided that he will be grilling them almost everyday for lunch and they have comforted me in a weird way. Just feeling like some time everything will go back to normal. I still feel like I haven’t set into a routine yet. It feels like the start of school figuring out my routine except instead of excitement it feels like everyone is just sad and confused. On the brighter side I have been able to make a lot more meals for myself based on what I want instead of when the school has to offer.

April 15, 2020

Today I’ve thought about how much I miss my Wii. My parents got rid of it a few years ago and it really held some of my favorite childhood moments. I remember my favorite game was Super Mario Galaxy which I consider to be the best Mario game because it was so different from all the others. You could explore completely different worlds every time you played the game. But it also had a unique and sad story line. It felt like that game had more depth than the other games and I really miss it. Also the music was pretty cool. I wish I could buy a new Wii and that game but the pandemic has made me skeptical. I’ve found myself reminiscing on my childhood more than usual recently which has made me both sad and grateful.

April 17, 2020

I am feeling very excited for spring. However usually spring is when me and my neighbors start hanging out again and playing basketball. It won’t feel the same without being able to hangout outside with them. I also kind of want to start running again because I live right next to a park, but it has been a bit cold. I also want to start drawing again as I feel like anything I create during this time will hold memories for me to look back on later.

Journal April 6,8,9

April 6, 2020

I’ve felt more and more worried about corona virus and how it is affecting life. I feel like in the beginning of this virus I wasn’t very worried because I had rationalized that if I just followed CDC guidelines that I wouldn’t get it and everything would go back to normal after a few hectic months. However, I’ve come to the realization that this virus isn’t just attacking the country in a purely physical way. The virus has wrecked our economy, and the rate of unemployment is near what it was during the Great Depression. I now realize my life won’t just go back to normal even when the virus is gone.

April 8, 2020

My sleep schedule is gone. Like if there was any sort of schedule before this virus it is absolutely gone. Last night I stayed up till 6 reading the book The Name of the Wind. To be fair it was a very good book, but now I am very tired and will likely take a nap later. I feel nocturnal and like the days are just blending together. I really hope that this ends sooner than I think because going another couple months without physical touch from anyone other than my family is really hard. I just want to hug my friends, watch movies with them, and go to the beach. I really hope this summer can be slightly normal.

April 9, 2020

I feel like this quarantine has really shown everyone how although the internet and social media can make people feel isolated they can also really connect people. Last night I had a Group FaceTime call with my family in different states and we all got to talk and check in which was very fun. I’ve also been FaceTiming my friends every day to try and get some sort of interaction outside my family. We have also been playing video games together which has been really fun. Honestly I don’t really miss school like other people do, I guess I just miss the social interaction of seeing people in person.